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Current mood:
anxious
Today is the birthday of a mutual friend of Bryan and
mine...actually, I met him through Bryan and now he is a close personal
friend of mine, too. He is having a party at the bowling alley tonight
and invited me. Of course, Bryan is going to be there. Bryan and I have
talked about the ramifications of me going, and I Have decided that it
is VERY important for me to put on my game face and go. I just don't
know how well I'm going to take it. Right now, I am shaking all over and
I literally feel sick from anxiety. It's not even noon. I have some
things to do to keep me busy, but I don't think the anxiety is going to
go away. I don't know what to expect. Tonight it's not about us, and I
will have to remember that, even though hanging out is going to be the
most difficult thing I've done since he left home. I keep praying for
him to come back but I don't know what's going to happen. It's going to
be hard to seperate our situation from the celbration tonight...,.but I
am going to try. I think I'm gonna go throw up now.
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