Disconnect
Current mood:lonely
When I wake up, its like being hit by a freight train. Everything comes rushing back and I sit here and wonder why. I cant eat either. Last night I went to church with some friends and for about an hour and half, I felt peace. As soon as I got home, though,that changed. This house is suddenly so empty and lonely, I cant stand it. I avoid his side of the bed completely, and I think I might put a TV in the living room so I can sleep out there. I havent watched TV in days but it is always on, just for the sound. The loneliness is unbearable. I am going to call someone today and find out if I can either get back into the treatment program I was in or something else, because I cant sit here all day with this on my mind. Its not so much that I want to die. I just want the pain to stop. And most of all, I really dont understand why we are where we are. I cant take it. I wish I had someone to come stay with me, because I DO NOT WANT BE ALONE.
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