Current mood:
peaceful
Today, I took a nap. Something about that nap completely erased my
stress. I woke up and felt so much better. Serra and I went to church
with Kristi and Mike and the service was wonderful. Lots of energy was
flowing, the music was loud and happy, and it felt good to be spending
time with good friends and family. At this moment, I am content and feel
peaceful, even loving, toward everyone. It feels so good to feel this
way that I must have forgotten what normal people feel like. I even
called Bryan when we left church and took him some medicine, as he has
been struck down with some mysterious illness that has made him very
sick, too sick to do anything but sleep and sweat. I swear I dont have
anything to do with it, so no one BETTER suggest it. LOL! He became sick
immediately after our conversation about the text messages, though.
Maybe God DOES work in mysterious ways.
I just wanted to write
this down to document how I feel today, because I know Im probably going
to have more shitty days ahead. I want this to remind me that things
CAN get better, and that I AM healing, slow as it may be. I refuse to
lose any more faith in myself.
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