FULL of Questions

What do you do with yourself when a bad relationship finally ends but before it does you find yourself thinking of someone else? Like, really thinking about that person ALL the time? And what if that person brings joy to your heart so that you always feel safe? What if that person spent most of their time with you? What do you do when the thought of being away from them makes you feel all panicky and...empty? Imagine this person to know everything about you, everything, everything...all the weirdness, the drug use, THE AWFUL CHILDHOOD, (LOL, all of us have one of those), and the abuse from your previous relationship? What if there was nothing that they didn't know about you? Would you feel close to this person? Would you want to be with them a lot? Would it make you feel good if you were? What about the person you were with before? What about their feelings? Does it matter? SHOULD it matter? And can you imagine that first kiss, if it ever happens, with someone who connects with you straight to your heart? I cannot imagine the emotion behind a kiss like that. What do you do when you feel like it's perfectly okay to not be with them physically because you know they're thinking about you so you don't really feel apart at all? What if the thought of touching this person made you feel like you were melting? Is it love? Is it attachment? What is it? I call it beautiful, a dopamine trip, a kick to the heart. I call it stress free. I call it fun. And comfortable. But do you call it love?