BUSY!

Does anyone else see the resemblance? LOL

Sorry that I haven't updated for a while. I've been working on another project and kind of abandoning my own personal journal. Today I decided it was finally time to update.

The job is going great! I am a whole different person than I was at this time a year ago. I cannot tell everyone how good it feels to go to work and be able to buy the things I need when I need them. My car has decided to go to shit, but it doesn't worry me because I know I can get a new car if I need one, with my OWN money. My bills are finally paid and now I feel like I can start fresh with everything. Bryan is finally working, and he couldn't be happier. He's making more money per hour than he's ever made, and he's making new friends. He hasn't earned a paycheck in a year, and I've already lost track of all the things he's going to do with his paycheck. (Gimme some money! Gimme some money! LOL) Our schedule works out great. On Mondays and Tuesdays, he has to be to work at 7, so I just get up early and get ready for work and take him to work and hang out at the house by myself until I have to leave, which isn't until about a quarter after eight. Then I pick him up on my lunch hour. Then he has Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday off which allows him the time to run errands and other such things that I hate to do. For instance, one errand that he has to run this week is GROCERY SHOPPING, something we have both agreed that we CANNOT do together. I can't stand the grocery store and Bryan likes to take his time, so I handed that chore over to him. On Saturdays I get up and take him to work at 7 or 8, then I come home and clean the house...dusting, baseboards, dishes if there are any, laundry, floors, etc. That usually takes me a few hours, and then when he comes in we make dinner and hang out. On Sundays, when I take him to work, I try to find something to do. Last Sunday I took Serra and Bella out to brunch, which was a lot of fun. Can't do that this week because I'm too broke, or I would.

Being in a routine has really done wonders for the state of my mental health. I cannot lie in bed at all. I've tried. It's Monday, Labor Day, my day off, and here it is 7:35 A.M. and I've been up for an hour. I'm raring to go! I don't like sleeping in too late anymore. Most of the time I'm up by 7:30 on days that I don't have to work, and that is just fine with me. I had all of 2006 to lie around and sleep until three o clock in the afternoon. Now I try to find productive things to do. It improves my well being to feel that I'm accomplishing things. I call it "Sondra Therapy." LOL. Hey, I know what works for me.

Things are not perfect, and I don't know if they ever will be, but they ARE perfect compared to where I started from. I am happy and I feel stable and settled for the first time in a long time. Bryan and I are homesick like hell and being away from everyone is really miserable. Every day we wish we could be back at home. But we both know that we wouldn't have gotten this far at home. We had to change our environment. Moving down here has saved our relationship, and I guess it was just something we felt we had to do. Now that we're here, we're finally a normal, stable, and functioning team. I really want to start my own business someday, so there is a remote possibility that we will end up going back home, but not right now. I have a great job with wonderful benefits and I work with the best people I've ever worked with. I feel like we are part of a family. I've been open with my boss about my past: the drug use, the fighting, everything. That took some pressure off of me because, as it turns out, everyone that I work with has went through something similar. Now we just apply all that negative energy to work, which is why we are all moderately successful and good at what we do. Like my boss said at our meeting on Friday: everyone here has their own talent. I enjoy working and I look forward to going to work most of the time. It is NICE to be able to work. I appreciate every day now.

So that's it on the life of the Bowaileys. Everything is settled down and now my relationship is finally where I want it to be. Life, for the moment, is good.

Happily,
Mz Bowailey