So this is what I look like today. Well, not actually today because this pic was taken a few days ago, but still. I have grown quite attached to this silver streak that has made its appearance in my hair. Can you see it? It's in my bangs. It looks like a streak that was put there on purpose. Creuella Deville? I think not.
So I have plans for this upcoming year that, quite frankly, scare the shit out of me. First off, I am moving out of state again, reluctantly. In order to save money we are moving in with Curtis's sister for a year. She lives in Aurora, Illinois. So, this is where we are going.
I am a Michigan girl through and through, so leaving here again is breaking my heart. But we need a better quality of life for ourselves and for Josh; Flint, MI doesn't quite cut it. We are leaving in March. I am in the process of eating all the coneys I can get my hands on. Chicago coneys are nothing like Flint coneys, and I will miss them. But that's about all I will miss. There's nothing left for me here, not with Alexa being in Florida and Memo being gone forever. When I wake up in the middle of the night scared to tears at the thought of moving, I just remind myself that there's nothing left here to hold on to and it is time to go.
Curtis has a guaranteed job, and I will probably start classes for nursing and/or wait tables in the meantime. That's if I can find a waitressing job...I am kind of getting old and my options are limited. I just can't wait to get this over with and get down there and see what opportunities may await me. I should have bettered my life years ago, when I had umpteen million chances. When I started this blog I had it better than I ever had it,and for many years afterward, I just never knew it. Now I know what it's really like to struggle, to have to count change to buy diapers and to go without any kind of transportation at all and have to depend on people for everything. I could have never envisioned this kind of life for myself, but I have to admit, that I did see it coming, I just didn't how to face it head on. I am tired of just barely surviving.
So, now I get to see where this new life is going to take us. I hope 2013 turns out to be my year!
Current mood:angry
Serra went to jail for calling a cop a bitch and pointing out to him that at least WE werent geeks who got beat up in high school so now we get to wear big, bad, blue uniforms and act like big, bad pricks. I bailed her out the next day. Consequently, she is not allowed to leave this shit hole of a state until her court case is done. I didnt pay some of my utility bills so I would have extra money to move, but now Im screwed and I wont have the internet after today.
On St Patricks day, while I was out with Dave, Bryan, and Serra, we got a phone call from my sister Kathy who informed us that Ricky was in jail, was arrested for driving while under the influence, 3 times over the legal limit exactly, and since he has some old felony warrants, we dont expect him to get out soon.
I also dealt with a situation here at my house the very same night, but I refuse to go into detail about it on here. Too risky, but rest assured everyone...Im handling it the way it SHOULD be handled.
So, we have no money, were broke, and thank God for my friend Stromie who gave Serra a few hundred dollars to buy food and stuff for the baby, since they didnt plan on staying here that long and she was running out of stuff. Other than that, I dont feel like I have shit to be thankful for. Church does nothing for me. I hate my life.